The Unseen Realm

Well…I know this is way outdated already but I’d promised myself I will write this, so…here goes.

Night shift…it was my first and last…for this semester. I woke up on Thursday morning feeling perplexed by what was about to take place that night. AFter lunch at 2pm, I’ve decided to sleep till 7pm but guess what? I woke up at 4:30pm and that was it, I couldn’t sleep any more. So there I was, wriggling under my blanket till 6:30pm - more tired than before. By 7:30pm, it rained. So very encouraging. It wad still drizzling when Bee Ann, Marshal and I walked to the hospital. When I think of the ten hours ahead of me, I had vertigo. When I knew the staff I was working with that night, I had hypotension - one is a newly graduate, another notorious for being lazy and another pregnant lady due in what? Two weeks time? Worst of all…there was this Dr. Tan Boon Yeow who only know how to kutuk, complaint, self praise and directing people to do work. Why can’t I get Dr. Tan-Clean-Own-Trolley of Dr. Lai-So-Shy!!?? Of all poeple, Tan Boon Yeow…Dr.Lee-Never-Smile also better. Anyway, I was quite free at time until 10:30pm where chaos began…

11am - Hourly v/sign for 4 pts + hourly PU output + feeding + dressing (why the heck this hour still got dressing!?!?!?) + colostomy care.

12am - Hourly v/s for 4 pts + v/sign for the whole ward + PU charting + up IV and restart regime.

1am - Hourly v/s for 4 pts + suction + PU charting + pt complaint of pain + patient want to go toilet + flush almost every IV line.

2am - (dead hungry) Hourly v/s for 4 pts + up IV drips + admission + suction + feeding + tepid sponging

3am - (hypoglycaemic) Hourly v/s for 4 pts + up IV drips + soiled linen + PU charting

By 4am, I was done with v/s signs including temperature for the acute cubicles. My stomach performed orchestra for an hour already. I turned to the SN, wanted to ask for a break. Instead of a, ‘thank you, you may go’, I get a ’sekarang boleh start 4am observation’. I was flushed red. I entered the treatment room and asked myself why was I running the whole ward alone? Why am I the only one doing everything except the paper work? 38 patients…one pathetic student nurse. Even Dr. Tan Boon Yeow sensed a tornado coming. I walk up to one SN and told her I’m going to eat. I ate in 15mins but I refused to go out from the pantry. I was so angry I dunno what to do except sitting there and clutching my water bottle. By 5am, I continue the whole routine all over again. By 6am, some patients woke up and yala yala yala, double the request, double the work.

5am - hourly v/s + suction + tepid sponging + flushing + PU charting

6am - hourly v’s + tepid sponging + Dr Tan kutuk-kutuk me + I kutuk-kutuk balik him and now we benci each other teruk-teruk +up IV drip

653am - received a message, ‘hurrah…shift’s over’. Over my head, Dr Tan asked me to do suction. I want to run him over with a truck.

705am - practically R.U.N out from the ward to get my iced mocha.

I was dead tired at the end of the day…ermm…I mean early in the day. Bee Ann and Marshal shared with me their experience. The SNs actually ask them to rest. Be Ann even got a Dr who said ‘TQ’. Confirmed face problem. I want to burn 8B nursing counter. Woo…so…unfair. Anyway, just as every sane poeple think we would go home and rest, we went down to Jusco after an hour nap to Karaoke. Our internal organs were all damaged after that night. Unable to recover, we went for eating spree the following day. Uugh…I felt so depressed after that shift. So very depressed.

Oh well…that’s what I’ve copied out from my journal. Now that it’s over…hmm…I still don’t like it but nvm la. At least it’s over xp.