The Unseen Realm

That is what I think of Ward 8B. Not only we have excessive women patients, we have excessive female doctors, nurses and students, maids, jaga and cleaners. Excessive of everything except things which I need to do procedures. Everything is kept in store dunno for what? What is the meaning of stor? It’s where you kept excess stuff where you run to when those at the treatment rooms are used up. One day dunno how many times I have to enter the store room to take things. Mind you, the room is like a war zone itself.

I thought I resent Ward 6B. After two days (that’s all it takes), I think I’m in love with ward 6B. In this ward, I don’t even have time to drink water nor pee. How can I don’t ended up being dehydrated with renal calculi? Uugh…this morning took it’s tow. I HATE the SNs there. Every time they catch me they will ask why I don’t do this and why I don’t do that. “Hello!? I only have two hands, two feet and sorry I can’t spilt into two via binary fission to run all your chores!” Gosh…they just lodge themselves at one corner ‘writing reports’ and point the students to do EVERYTHING. Shit you, what kind of report can you write when you didn’t do anything. Uugh…I’m so pissed.

Today is morning shift, I felt so unsatissfied with myself! I rather do work alone if it means getting more done faster!? I can’t believe I’ve spent the whole 7 hours on one patient who is not even my patient. I’ve neglected my own patient, I felt so bad. So bad that I’ll stick to my own cubicle tomorrow. Also, I will never breech the ‘professionla relationship’ with patient or their family members again. It’s so not professional to chit chat while doing procedures and as they think we’re so ‘friendly’ they expect us to be there 24-7 attending them and only them. So, no thank you. Give me some space.

Sheesh…everything is everywhere - it’s a surgical ward but no dressing set. Don’t even have sterile scissors! I could have run back to ward 3A for one! I was so tempted. Uugh…wait. Wait. Gimme a week. Maybe I’ll fall in love with this Ward as well. Just…sigh…I love 8B, I love 8B, I looooooooovvvee 8B. I love SN, I love SN, I love SN. I love treasure hunting during emergency. I love spending hours looking for a micropore. I love hunting for normal Saline when I want to do suction and there’s not even a receiver. Gosh…help me to love this place….